I'm leading quite a happy life now... but I think I have a problem with that.

I think I am just too used to needing to feel unhappy. I know that sounds weird. What I mean is, I'm addicted to making myself feel miserable or I wouldn't feel normal. The past year has been a whirlwind for me, and I'm amazed that I'm actually happy now. However, I dread saying that... because who knows? - Something might change the next moment and get me all depressed again. I think I shouldn't be too quick to say I'm happy... or am I wrong? I thought about this for a second and realized that there was actually nothing wrong in feeling happy! Hooray!!! I suddenly feel enlightened.

Now I could go on and on in this never-ending personal debate but I guess it would lead to no where. Everyone is seeking happiness (just Google it) but I believe, in all honesty, the road to happiness is a very simple one:

1) Give thanks for everything. And by everything, I mean both the good and the bad things. So many people strive for perfection, but they forget that there is nothing perfect in this world. Well... maybe apart from God and that is only if you believe in His existence. There are so many people out there who strive for perfection, and when they don't get perfect results after devoting their energies and time into something, they get angry and frustrated - and start blaming their failures on other people. They berate and scream about how unfair this world is, they argue and banter on why they are failing... And in the process, they actually forget that this world has always been unfair right from the beginning. The rich get richer & the poor get poorer... Some people are born with no hands and legs, some mothers die giving birth. Come on, the world has always been a harsh and unfair place! It's what you make of it that makes all the difference.

2) Be contented & appreciate the people around you.

3) Set goals and achieve them. Start small then go big! You'll be a happier person when you do so! Don't bite off more than what you can chew!

Well I could go on forever, but I guess I'm sounding rather hypocritical right now ;) Because I'm a constant procrastinator and hate doing anything that requires effort. But please don't fault me, I am already taking small steps to change.

And about the secretive mission I was talking about in my previous posts - I am doing my best! But suddenly I feel so lost... Totally confused about the direction I'm taking in my project. I'm gonna take a few days off this project and just relax. Hopefully, I'll be a more productive person once I start on the project again.

Wish me good luck & to the people who had been constantly visiting my blog, THANK YOU! I didn't know you people still remembered my existence! :)

I have been doing a lot of research and reading lately. Not for school though, surprisingly.  I'll let all of you know what I've been obssessing about once I've accomplished my goal. I've set a target for one year and I'm going to work like crazy to make it happen!

I'll write more next time... Back to my research! (If only I was this enthusiastic about school assignments... )

I passed my driving test today!

And I feel guilty about it because I sure don't deserve to pass. But who cares!

Tell you what I did during the test... I beat the red light and strike the kerb... I should have gotten an immediate failure for sailing past the red light but I think the tester just turned a blind eye to that. And when I hit the kerb, the tester's eyes glinted while he said, "Next time brake quickly, you almost hit the kerb!" No siree! You and I both know what I did. It was so obvious.

I seriously have no idea why he passed me. Can someone tell me why?

Before anyone lambasts me about passing the test just to go kill myself while driving on the road - I am NOT a terrible driver. I was just too nervous. I could even feel my legs shaking. This only happened during the test... On other days, driving feels like a piece of cake. I am such an arrogant person!

Anyway! I passed and ultimately that is what matters. Imp said he'll be getting me a car... Hope he means what he says. But even if he doesn't, I'm ok with it. I passed and ultimately that is what matters.

My friend X has the worst father on earth. First, he divorced his wife over a China woman and then tried to kick her out of the house because the China woman demanded that he do so. Talk about a guy with no balls.

Well, I'm not condemning all China women. I only extend my disgust to home wreckers (especially those China women who come to Singapore for the sole purpose of "earning" money!) When I say "earning", what I really mean is hooking up a rich guy irregardless if he's 10 or 85 years old, or whether he is already married with kids to provide for!

Why are Singaporean men so daft?! Stupid! And I'm not the only person who thinks Singaporean men are stupid, even China women who prostitute themselves on the streets of Geylang do too. Oh, the irony. *rolls eyes* Just google it and you'll see what I mean.

I'm hopping mad because:

1) X's father is 62 this year. That new wife of his is 32. Not that there is anything wrong with marrying someone 30 years younger, but he dumped his wife of 36 years for someone he only knew for 4 months! And all for a new, spanking young wife who manipulated him into transferring ownership of the house to her name; a demure, sweet little tart who demanded a car, a hefty monthly allowance and even quarrels with her husband's own father (X's grandfather). She told the old man to just "go die off quickly".

2) The China woman shrieks at X whenever X asks her dad for her allowance. Claims that X is a spendthrift who doesn't know how to get a job to earn her own keep. Hello?? X is a fulltime student in a local polytechnic and she barely has time to complete all projects and assignments. Who the heck has time to get a job when she's so busy studying? And since X's father has sole custody of her, isn't he supposed to provide for her until she turns 21? If that lunatic stepmum of hers feels that X should get a job, then why can't she get a job herself? Instead of splurging X's father's $500 on shisheido products? Or using his money all the time? She even wants to start bringing her relatives over to Singapore to start businesses in jewellery and hair products. All with X's father's money, of course.

3) Let's see if this disgusting woman will still stick around if X's father suddenly has no more money... Or if there is no more money for her to milk from X's father. She'll just kick him out of the house. The house that is now hers.

4) Isn't it obvious how precious a Singapore citizenship/PR status is? Look at Gong Li, one of Hollywood's superstar - even she has decided to take on Singapore citizenship. That stupid home wrecker just had to get some dumb, idiotic guy to marry her and voila! She gets PR status now.

5) What does X's father see in that crazy China woman. Seriously. What does he see in someone who doesn't even bother flushing the toilet bowl after using it?!

6) X made a police report the other day because the China woman hit her. Next thing we know, the China woman also went to make a police report against X! Wooh! Lied and told the police that X hit her first... and even showed the police the scratches on her arms. She's a complete nutcase. X never once scratched her and only loony people like that China woman would go scratch herself and then make a police report.

7) X's father is a wimp. He doesn't stand up to his new wife and even sides her over his own flesh and blood, his own child.

Arggghhhhhh! I have so much more to rant about... I'm afraid if I continue on, this whole entry is going to turn too vulgar.

My friend has tried to seek legal aid but apparently, she is not suitable for such aid. All they can offer is counseling. Total madness. She needs money because she wants to move out of the hellhole but as she is currently studying, she cannot afford to find a job now. And there's this whole transferring of custody to her own mother issue which is kind of complicated.

Can anyone advise on how to get rid such China women (pests!) in Singapore?! All they ever do is cheat people of money and wreck marriages. Why can't X's father WAKE UP and DIVORCE the slut? And then she'll lose her PR status.

Singapore should erect a new law to protect its citizens. A law which explicitly states that a person of another nationality will have absolutely no stake in his/her spouse's inheritance and/or properties - only the children are entitled to the inheritance. So China home wreckers will think twice about marrying a Singaporean just for the PR status, just for the money. If she does decide to get married then, she has to know that she will be left with nothing eventually. Hah. Or she could try manipulating the guy into giving up his citizenship and immigrate over to China or some other foreign country. Or she could milk him dry of as much cash as she can before jumping into the bed of the next richer person.

I just ate up 9 sausage buns to celebrate the end of the toughest academic week ever. One last paper on the 21st and then it's holiday time! Sweet!

I hope to visit Bintam during the holidays. I need a short getaway trip to freshen up before the new term begins. I'll be taking communication research, campaign management and print news next semester and can already imagine the amount of coursework I'd be setting myself up for. But I'll just worry about that next term.

The imp is still sleeping. Sleeping is a normal cognitive function of the human body. However, it becomes abnormal when one sleeps for 25 hours straight without even waking up once to eat or visit the bathroom. I was concerned that the little imp might have died in his sleep, so I scurried into the bedroom to check for signs of life. I called his name, but there was no response. I checked his breathing, and it was faint. I got worried. So I slapped him and suddenly he jumped up and yelled his head off at me. So much for being concerned. Nevermind! At least he's still alive.

I'm going to munch on my tenth sausage bun now. Update another time!